I can do hard things

While hiking with my dad today, we saw a closed flower and he mentioned that it only blooms in the moonlight.
What a lovely thought, a flower that only blooms in darkness...
Sometimes I feel that I reach my most beautiful moments when I am surrounded by darkness. It's in those moments that I realize I am strong and that I can do all hard things in the Lord.


Quick and dirty fuji instant film scans by me from today.

an unfortunate request

This is probably one of the hardest, most heartbreaking choices I've had to make. It's been coming for a while now and I may have already even wrote about it but I've never really had commitment to it like I do now. So here it goes...

Many of you know how much I adore my dogs. Marley is my baby girl, she's my family and I love her with all of my heart. She's one of the sweetest, most loving dogs I've met. She will love you the second she meets you and not even think twice about it. Coming home everyday to someone who loves me unconditionally is the best thing I could ever ask for. She owns my heart and she always will.
My life is taking an interesting turn as of late and because of the choices that I've made and the circumstances that these choices have created.... I can no longer provide a loving home for my sweet Marley. And so my friends, here is my request.... I've been working with an adoption agency to find Marley a new home and so far nothing has worked out. I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty picky about who is going to take Marley. She's definitely an indoor dog but loves having access to the outside and she needs a lot of attention and exercise. So if you know of anyone who would be interested in her under those circumstances and would love her with all their heart, send them my way.
Thank you friends.

Here is her information...

American Eskimo
2.5-3 years old
18 lbs
Spayed
House trained
If you'd like more information on her personality, energy, behavior, etc... contact me.

a joyful find

Here's the deal.
I can never find clothes at clothing stores that I actually like or are modest enough for me to wear. I would much rather sew my clothes how I like them.... but... there is no good apparel fabric anywhere. I have internet searched and fabric store searched and everything searched and I can never find anything worth buying (well, besides Anthropologie fabric... but $88/yard? ya right.)
Well.
I just found this website and my heart is so joyful it could dance. Actually, it is dancing. All over the place like a maniac. And the pricing isn't half bad.

Okay but seriously... today is the best day.
You're welcome sewing peeps.

ahem.

*Cough cough*
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*Cough*
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Listening? Great. I have an announcement to make.
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I am still alive.
That is all.
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Haha, just kidding!
I'll post a little more for you Nes ;)
I saw this video on KSL and I really liked it. It's definitely worth your time to watch. Agency is a beautiful gift that we fought for and this a great example of how we can use it.

up to the mountains

These are some of the first images that I shot for my BFA project. I'm not sure if I'm actually going to use them in my final show, but I'm happy about the direction that I'm going. I'll explain more about my project later, I don't want to spoil it too soon ;)

thoughts

#1- I went on a blind date last night. We'll call him Charles (that's confusing, I have a Charles and a Charlie... good thing I won't be writing about Charlie anymore, he just got engaged, ha!). Anyways, Charles was nice, I liked him. We went bowling. I lost terribly. We'll see if I hear from him again :)

#2- I'm finishing up my last semester of school and trying not to panic at the thought of having to be a "real" adult.

#3- Living with the best roommate ever! Shauna is aaaa-mazing. I adore her.

#4- Missing my sister on the mission. She leaves for Tampa this Monday, woo!

#5- Working on fixing up my house so I can put it up for sell. Crossing my fingers.

#6- And lastly, an embarrassing story :)

Once upon a time I parked my stick shift in a store parking lot. I went inside, did my business, chatted, yada yada yada.... when I headed out of the store and looked for my little Angelina (my car. In case you didn't catch onto that.), I couldn't find her. Strange, there were only 5 parking spots. Keep in mind that this parking lot is slanted down towards State Street.... I started to move my gaze from the original parking spot of my car towards State Street to find that my bitty Chevy had in fact rolled to the end of the parking lot and... thank my lucky stars... had been stopped by a dinky, little curb and a bush and had not rolled into State Street despite that it was certainly headed that direction.
Lesson learned.
I am now paranoid about checking my emergency break.

skiing

I went skiing with my brother and parents the other day before the season ends. It was so much fun! I brought my film camera to take some shots... why film? Because I love film. And if I crash, I don't damage my very expensive digital camera. Perks of my little Canon AE-1 tank ;)