The first post is always the hardest. I feel the need to introduce my blog and its purpose or make some sort of statement. Especially since I'm pretty sure a good majority of you are reading this blog to figure out what the heck is going on.
I'm not going to write details about Jordan and me because frankly, its really nobody's business and I'm not out to make Jordan look bad. But yes, we are getting divorced. I did everything I could to save our marriage, but in the end, it was ultimately his choice.
It was extremely difficult at first, as it would be for anyone really, but I'm doing surprisingly well. I've come to terms with Jordan's decision and even though I don't agree with it and would rather it not have happened at all, I'm ready to move on. I'm not angry, upset or bitter with Jordan or life or anything really. I chose in the beginning that I forgave Jordan for all of this and still loved him despite his choices and that was the best thing I could have done for myself. The Lord has taken my burden for me and though it has been hard, it has been bearable and I've really been okay.
There have been so many countless people that have been so supportive and loving to me, I really have noticed and I appreciate it so much. I love this quote from Elder Holland...

"I testify of angels, both the heavenly and the mortal kind. In doing so I am testifying that God never leaves us alone, never leaves us unaided in the challenges that we face. '[N]or will he, so long as time shall last, or the earth shall stand, or there shall be one man [or woman or child] upon the face thereof to be saved' (Moroni 7:36). On occasions, global or personal, we may feel we are distanced from God, shut out from heaven, lost, alone in dark and dreary places. Often enough that distress can be of our own making, but even then the Father of us all is watching and assisting. And always there are those angels who come and go all around us, seen and unseen, known and unknown, mortal and immortal.
"May we all believe more readily in, and have more gratitude for, the Lord's promise as contained in one of President Monson's favorite scriptures: 'I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, . . . my Spirit shall be in your [heart], and mine angels round about you, to bear you up' (D&C 84:88). In the process of praying for those angels to attend us, may we all try to be a little more angelic ourselves—with a kind word, a strong arm, a declaration of faith and 'the covenant wherewith [we] have covenanted' (D&C 90:24). Perhaps then we can be emissaries sent from God."
Jeffrey R. Holland, "The Ministry of Angels," Ensign, Nov. 2008, 31

There is a lot of love in my heart for the angels in my life. I wish I could say more than a mere thank you, so just know that even though its small, it comes from the bottom of my heart.

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